Keep falling

I keep on falling in and out of love

 

 

It’s been a journey for handstand practice. I even thought I could never do it but now I believe I do. The thought itself is a breakthrough.

Surely I fell off the ground a lot. I felt like a dancer. I thought my back were so flexible that it allowed me to land in any possible way without breaking it. My hands and shoulders are not that kind though. I usually got injuries with shoulder blade, hands. It gets aching times to times.

Handstand is a slow process.

First, the thought of standing on your hand is kinda…lovely. Then fine, ok I could try. Then well, getting the legs up in the air is terrifying. Then oh yeah, I could do it with wall support.

Getting the legs up I think is a success for me since I learned a lot from it. How to align the hands, position the fingers, the elbow and the neck, where to rest your eyes on. I tried and failed so many times in getting the legs up against the wall. Then I got a little disappointed that I tried different pose such as the crow pose to increase the strength of my wrist first. Then I discovered that hand positions in crow pose is the same as handstand! And it worked! What's funny is thanks to handstand practice, I learned to do crow pose successfully lol. It is often the other way round.  Anyway, even with the hand position right, I was still not able to stay balanced. Then one time, my eyes rest on the floor not on the back mirror and I figured that you should look down, not look behind! Then I got my legs up fairly easily now.  It took me two months since I started serious handstand practice. By serious, I mean every day for at least 5 mins.  And I have got yoga foundation for a year.

For now I am in still in the process of leaving the wall support. I watched lots of video on youtube on how to do it by looking at their posture really closely and still don’t find a way. I keep practicing though since I believe I can do it sooner or later. There was a brief moment when I could do without wall support, like 2-3 seconds and  I felt like wow, a progress baby!

The motivations that keeps me doing it I guess is because I was bored hahaha.